*WARNING* REAL GRAPHIC CONTENT - Not for the squeamish.

Brief overview - I first tried self-harming deliberately at 8 years of age by cutting and hitting myself with a belt repeatedly until I bruised all-over, the exact same age I first attempted suicide by hanging.
I seriously started to self-harm (cut/cut out flesh/carve out flesh/burn ect.) at the age of 11 and it was my own completely personal EXTREMELY SERIOUS UNCONTROLLABLE addiction until I was about 17 years of age.
I have made absolutely countless amounts of suicide attempts during the past almost 12 years. To die.

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I burnt each of my ankles earlier this year (2012).
These images are from the past 5 days.
I self-harm to numb my unbearable emotional and psychological pain.
It is NOT for YOU. It IS for ME AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN. It is what I do for MYSELF. The ONE THING I DO FOR MYSELF AND ONLY FOR MYSELF! 

IT IS PERSONAL. To help MYSELF. Not for any other purpose whatsoever. NOT for attention. NOT FOR SYMPATHY. I don't want your goddamn pretentious sympathy.
NOONE EVER KNEW ABOUT IT APART FROM MY PARENTS AND MY FIANCE.
I do it to distract from my inner most confronting inescapable pains and fears.. My traumas particularly from my past.
It is extremely personal to me and always has been.
I have always kept it a secret.
I still have hundreds upon hundreds of scars on my body from past self-mutilation.
I do NOT enjoy the pain. This keeps me alive, believe it or not. The pain inside is completely and utterly excruciating and very, very few people are aware I do this or ever have done this.

I post this so others who self-mutilate do not feel alone.You are not alone.I really understand what it's like to feel that way.I feel completely alone most of the time, myself.

This 2 inch deep laceration was done yesterday on the 13th of November 2012.
I had to be taken immediately to the ER. I was there for 4 hours. I saw a nurse, 2 doctors and a specialist.
They made sure I didn't cause any permanent damage to muscle or tendon.
The lovely female doctor tried to keep the stitches to a minimum so I was administered antiseptic by needle and I had 5 stitches. I also had a tetanus shot and a prescription for antibiotics.

This 2 inch deep laceration was done yesterday on the 13th of November 2012.
I had to be taken immediately to the ER. I was there for 4 hours. I saw a nurse, 2 doctors and a specialist.
They made sure I didn't cause any permanent damage to muscle or tendon.
The lovely female doctor tried to keep the stitches to a minimum so I was administered antiseptic by needle and I had 5 stitches. I also had a tetanus shot and a prescription for antibiotics. The bandages cover burns and other cuts from self-harm before I went out earlier that day into the public streets.

This 2 inch deep laceration was done yesterday on the 13th of November 2012.
I had to be taken immediately to the ER. I was there for 4 hours. I saw a nurse, 2 doctors and a specialist.
They made sure I didn't cause any permanent damage to muscle or tendon.
The lovely female doctor tried to keep the stitches to a minimum so I was administered antiseptic by needle and I had 5 stitches. I also had a tetanus shot and a prescription for antibiotics. The bandages cover burns and other cuts from self-harm before I went out earlier that day into the public streets.

This 2 inch deep laceration was done yesterday on the 13th of November 2012.
I had to be taken immediately to the ER. I was there for 4 hours. I saw a nurse, 2 doctors and a specialist.
They made sure I didn't cause any permanent damage to muscle or tendon.
The lovely female doctor tried to keep the stitches to a minimum so I was administered antiseptic by needle and I had 5 stitches. I also had a tetanus shot and a prescription for antibiotics. The bandages cover burns and other cuts from self-harm before I went out earlier that day into the public streets.

This 2 inch deep laceration was done yesterday on the 13th of November 2012.
I had to be taken immediately to the ER. I was there for 4 hours. I saw a nurse, 2 doctors and a specialist.
They made sure I didn't cause any permanent damage to muscle or tendon.
The lovely female doctor tried to keep the stitches to a minimum so I was administered antiseptic by needle and I had 5 stitches. I also had a tetanus shot and a prescription for antibiotics. The bandages cover burns and other cuts from self-harm before I went out earlier that day into the public streets.

Blood from cutting.. :(

Superficial cuts and bandaids covering more (older) self-mutilation and burns. Scars of cigarette burns  on my right foot.

blood..

Superficial cuts and bandaids covering more (older) self-mutilation and burns. Scars of cigarette burns  on my right foot.